Eddie Walker

Chickory, chickory, the magical root, the more you drink the more you toot!!!! So, today has been a little frustrating...I sucked it up on the tennis court...But what do I expect...even Andy Roddick has an off day...but I bet he doesn't double fault through 8 games...Anyways, I found out that ANOTHER girl that I know is getting married...Ladies, I've said it once and I'll say it again...if you want to get married have a crush on me for a period of time...Some how that will set you up for success in your next relationship...It's pretty unbelievable...With the exception of one girl all the others I have known have ended married or pregnant...I maintain a pretty impecable record...

On to other news...I am working my way back into the poker scene...I am quitting Starbuck's...My hours at the hospital are picking up and if I really need to I can work extra hours in a different part of the hospital.

The waiting game for my interviews is killing me. I don't know how much more of it I can handle, but I obviously don't have much of a choice. I think that some of these med. schools are just teasing me...Maybe it's God trying to affirm my decision to pursue medicine but it's very frustrating...At this point in time I have heard from every top med. school in the nation...Those that I have applied to and those that wish me to apply...It's hard to tell if any of this is legitimate or if it's a big joke...I guess it's cool to be recruited, but I don't want to get excited until I receive an acceptance.

Lots of spiritual turmoil...Nevertheless, God will be glorified...

I am currently listening to the most underrated album ever...Quite the bold statement, however; I also maintain a bias towards the artist...She's one of the most talented women in the music industry...She is consistently overlooked which makes her my little secret...My love affair started with this artist when one of the kids in my youth group introduced me to her music in March of 2001...She's only had two albums and the latest was released in Nov. of 2003...I would have to say that my experience with her is number one amidst all of my other encounters with famous musicians...In May of 2001 I went to her concert in Vegas at the "Joint" in the Hard Rock Hotel...I was in the front row when she reached down to grab my hand...With an angelic aura and the voice of a Nightingale she sang to me...She stared deep into my eyes for an eternity...I did not want to let go...but felt the jealous stares of those around me...This was one story that was not going to "stay in Vegas." The Artist-Nelly Furtado, the New Album-Folklore. Her song Foca is the theme song for the Euro Soccer tournament...How hot is that...


Here she is...


Until next week...hopefully I'll have something interesting to say then...And hopefully I want have to hear about any more engagements...No Good!!!!

By the way, the date on this is wrong..it should be the fifth of Oct.

posted by Unknown @ 9:12 AM 2 comments

Some awesome news...My friend Erin (not the American girl) gave me one of the raddest gifts I have ever received...she gave me a Jason Mraz guitar pick...it has his name on one side and a picture of a rooster on the other. Erin was able to meet him a while back and received two picks. She gave me one of them...He even used this pick at one of his shows...The following picture is Erin and Jason...I am so jealous...

posted by Unknown @ 11:08 AM 3 comments

It's hard to believe that I only have time once a week to update this thing...well I need some serious prayer...I am having difficulty finding the time and energy to finish my medical school apps...I have about 7 more to do...I might take a few days off of work just to make it happen...we'll see.

Another crazy coincidence..."hey, that's joincidence with a 'c'!" My boss at Starbuck's was a former tennis opponent of mine when I was in high school...kinda crazy...I hope he doesn't begrudge me for kickin' his ass (both in high school and last week)...oops...that wasn't very humble, but as I recall those are the facts...anyways, I told him today that I was going to have to cut my hours back to 2 days a week...this working 7 days a week thing isn't really doin' it for me...I am not sure if it's that or the fact that I don't want to listen to one more fastidious heifer scoff at how many carbs are in a Caramel Frappuccino and then decide to have a latte' (a lotta fat) made with heavy whipping cream...these customers in California are the worst...Everything is "half caf, with one quarter breve and three-quarters whole, 2 Splenda, and 4 shots of espresso, with only a pump and a half of vanilla." Hey Jack Ass, why don't you simplify your life and mine and order a COFFEE. I am quite sure these morons couldn't tell if I was steaming urine...as long as I placed some whip cream on it they wouldn't care...I should take up some of Tyler Durden's old tricks...then I would make some friends...or become schizophrenic.

Taking some time away from "The Bux" (as we Californians call it) will do me some good...serving coffee for 8 hours at a time is the most worthless vocation ever...I can't handle these pathetic individuals and their wasteful ways..."Can I get a sleeve for my iced mocha, I don't want the condensation to get my hand wet...I might proceed to melt like the Wicked Bitch, I mean Witch of the West." Do we really need to produce more waste? Does anyone have a grasp of conservation? Do you really need your tepid coffee double cupped? Enough...

Still waiting to hear back about an interview...I've heard nothing...which is better than a no good something...Hopefully I'll receive some gospel soon...(Can you use that word in this context?)

I am not sure if I have much else to say...I think the Lord has been doing some cool stuff in my life...I really don't do much, but I feel at peace with where I am and what I am doing (for the most part). I am starting to feel attractive again...that's kinda nice...I think there are times in our lives where our insecurities come crashing down upon us...Like 12 ft. swells crashing down on the steep slope of beach at the Wedge...the shore break is dangerous if the tide is able to pull you into its path...like a washing machine the current pulls you down and in a semi-circular motion raises you to the peak of the wave only to have gravity and the momentum created by a few thousand gallons of water ground you...This must be from God...I am not sure why He is allowing me to see the zinc line amidst the cloud cover..But I'll revel in the odd humour of our Lord and His cabalistic ways. Because as my good friend once said, "Smilers they never lose and frowners they never win." But the question still remains, who's the one with the bright eyes?

posted by Unknown @ 7:57 PM 2 comments

Contrary to popular belief Natalie Portman and Keira Knightley are not the same person...but if any one knows someone that looks like either of them...hook me up...

posted by Unknown @ 10:35 PM 3 comments

I finally saw Garden State last night...it was totally awesome...However, I am sick and tired of watching movies that make me feel like crap...I think that I connect all too well with Zach Braff's character (Andrew Largeman)...I went to the movie with my ex-girlfriend as of 6 years ago...We were the only two people in the theater...As I was trying to digest the spoon-fed images I became somber and reflective...I felt as though I was Andrew Largeman...And though I was sitting next to someone that I felt should know me well...I was truly alone...I am not so sure she knows me at all...Maybe no one truly knows me...Andrew Largeman was 26 when he met the woman with whom he was to share the rest of his life...Maybe that's when I'll get lucky.

As a boy I thought sex would be the greatest part of marriage...As a man I have come to realize it's all about the companionship...This is what I long for...I've had plenty of amazing experiences and yet there has not been one person with whom I have been able to share them...I suppose that's part of the beauty...There will never be a time that I will be duplicating a past experience with a new individual...(unless it's making out at the beach...I've done plenty of that)...The way that Andrew meets Sam is pretty incredible...I had a similar experience almost 3 years ago...However, I never received the farewell that he did at the airport...His words were pulled out of a page of my own history-His words may have been a little more dramatic, however, I think they apply-

"You changed my life. You changed my life, and I've known you four days. This is the start of something really big, but right now, I gotta go."

I am still haunted by these apparitions...Will God every fill the void or redeem this? Because all I have received from friends on this issue is a lot of bull shit answers that don't add up to a reality that I live...Instead it's one rhetorical question after another that ask, "Is God good?" Either way, I think He's good...as I am sure Job, David, and those in the desert could affirm...Yet, that did not change their situations nor did that ALWAYS provide them solace...All that to say that I am still struggling...and I can't afford to watch another movie that does not line up with reality...I suppose that's what movies are for...they are a way for us to escape the humdrum of our own heartbeat...A heartbeat that from the day of conception seeks to rest from its incessant pounding...The cinema does not provide a hope of a better life that foments my soul...Instead it provides a chasm of despair...I admire the depths of the darkness before hurling myself from my precipice.

Jason Mraz wrote on his blog recently about being real...Here's to keepin' it real...

posted by Unknown @ 9:20 PM 2 comments

I am currently listening to Jason Mraz...surprised? I have to admit I am exhausted from the last two days events and have neither an artistic word or a witty phrase to place upon this blank canvas. How is it possible that music can consistently soothe the contours of a tired soul? The sweet beats and seductive poetry relaxes my repugnant disposition-thank God for that.

Yesterday, I woke up at 3:20 a.m. When Ben Franklin wrote, "Early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise." I am not so sure that he was envisioning a twenty-something fumbling around the house in order to be at work by 4:00 a.m. 3:20...who gets up that early? If I were to see Benny...he and I would have words...I would have to inform him that his apothegm doesn't apply to an individual making little better than minimum wage. I forgot to inform my stomach acid that I was on a different sleeping schedule and as a result my stomach acid decided to sleep in...This cannot be healthy...I couldn't even eat when I got up...Now we all know there's something wrong with that...And here's the kicker...How wise is an individual that makes minimum wage, can't eat, and still gets up at 3 a.m.? Ben Franklin was obviously never called out on this oversight. I bet his other axioms are crap as well...Maybe I'll get a Ph.D. in discussing how his almanac led young men to starvation and poverty before they reached the age of thirty...I am sure that I could write an extensive thesis on how our forefather was busy smoking crack as he randomly wrote things on his blank canvas.

Today I woke up at 5:15 a.m. I live in a house where the dilatory individual gets out of bed at 6:00 a.m. That used to be me, however, the "Loser Crown" is now passed back and forth between 219 Vista Montana Way's current residents. I started back at the hospital today...It was strangely familiar...As if I had never left...I was knee deep in placentas...I was like Emeril, cutting an umbilical cord here and a membrane wrap there...It was awesome...I had some dude's bile-filled gall bladder splash upon my scrubs...yum...Those were the exciting highlights..we received someone's colon that was fresh and filled with feces...That was pretty cool too...It was all stuff I've seen before, yet I was remarkably callous to the whole scene. I thought that I would be a little apprehensive-wasn't true at all.

I think that's all I should write for now...I am tired and need to get ready to see a friend from high school that I haven't seen in 5 years...crazy...Anyways, talk to you later...My little blank canvas...

posted by Unknown @ 8:20 PM 0 comments

I feel as though I am taking a class in Bureaucratic BullShit 101...it's been another gruelling day...hours in front of the computer screen pounding out sentence fragments...I am trying to write a masterpiece for each of these medical school committees...I feel like a tailor, constantly trying to modify the crap that I wrote for the last set of app.'s...it's really tough to make something ex nihilo...I should really let the Lord take over in that department...

posted by Unknown @ 5:49 PM 0 comments